Abah kata dia nampak muka anak-anak aku lain sikit the moment we arrive kat rumah abah to celebrate raya. "Takde Papa dia ni, lain sikit laa muka diorang ni. Happy tapi, kurang bercahaya.." Hmm.. Ye ker? I never notice that? Maybe gak? Sedih aku dengar statement abah tu, tapi, nak buat cemana. Nak cari rezeki lebih, kena laa outstation jauh-jauh kan, sayang? Dah laa Aisyah jenis yang 'pendam dalam'. Takde complaint verbally, but, deep down, i think she missed her papa a lot. Kengkadang, she would recall things that she did with her papa. Like recently, she mentioned about feeding monkeys at the Zoo with Papa, and that was on January 05. She was only 1 yr and 3 months old at that time. I never thot that she could memorize things at that age. 
Syazwan pulak, ok jer. As long as dia kenyang, he will be fine. Cuma, masa balik kelantan ari tu, dia demam. So, everyone "especially mom" was saying that Syazwan demam because he missed his father. Pastuh, repeatedly cakap "kesian ejul raya sorang-sorang". Aku tak tau nape aku rasa mcm aku dipersalahkan when Ma utter those words? Nape hah? Pastuh, mula lah aku rasa mcm tension sbb rasa dipersalahkan. Padahalnya.... tak de pape pun. What about me? Hmm... What did I feel about this whole thing? I must be crazy if I didn't feel anything. I MISS HIM A LOT!!! Tapi, sibukkan diri untuk buat persiapan raya, sampaikan, sempat beraya 3 rumah je raya pertama tu. Pastuh, terus tertido sebab demam dan pening kepala ..
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"Kesian ejul raya sorang-sorang" ???? Muahahahahahaha. Entah lah , Tak rasa kesian langsung ngan diri aku sendiri pun.
Dulu ingatkan sedih gak kalo beraya di perantauan nih .. sorang2 plak tuh... tapi aku rasa mcm no hal plak.. janji dapat contact anak bini either through phone or skype. Nasib baik ler ade skype, dapat contact family almost every day. Amazing plak rasa...
Dah kaya sket nanti.. cita2 nak beli pc or laptop .. pastu pasang strymex kat umah .. on skype 24 hours ... so kalo aku out station jauh2 pun still boleh dengar aper yang berlaku kat umah .. boleh dengar suara anak2 (nih cilok dari idea sorang female chinese)
satu lagi sebab aku tak heran raya tahun nih kat oberseas sebab aku beraya kat GOLD COAST !!! Muahahahahahaha Jalan2 Free !!! Sapa nak bagi woi ??? Kereta Mitshubishi Lancer kaler merah kampeni bayar !!! Minyak kompeni bayar !!! tol tak payah bayar .. bayar parking jer... hehehehehehehehe memang heaven betul rasa... tiap2 weekend jalan2 hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
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